so.

blah.

im still confused. i keep playing these past three weeks over and over in my head. im getting no where. how do you date someone for three years and just drop them? how do you tell them how much you love them, but treat them like nothing when its over? my heart is torn. i want to know what happened to change hearts so much? is it because im so far away? is it because everything is so new? so many thoughts in my head...i could keep going but i wont.

despite the fun that i am having, he is a constant thought. i just want to talk-tell him what i have been doing, hear what he has been up to. i miss him. a lot.

we went to milan on friday night for fashion week! it was pretty awesome! the city was so so so huge...we ended up getting lost for a good 2 hours yesterday. we stayed in a hotel in the sketchiest (word?) part of town ever. haha. but it was an experience! i had the best pizza i have ever had, in the world, EVER. it was awwwweeeeesssssssooooooommmmmeeeee! so good that i went for dinner two nights in a row. :)

we went shopping, and i found nothing. i need new jeans...its been kinda nice walking everywhere! i have lost so much weight i cant wear my clothes anymore, they fall off. too bad all the jeans here in europe are skinny leg, tight as can be to your calfs, ugly jeans. haha. im having no luck. we did some intense window shopping at vuitton, prada, cavalli, versace, ralph lauren, etc...we were too embarassed to actually go in the stores-it was incredible!

we walked to the fashion "building?" of course we couldnt get in because you had to be invited by a designer, but we could see the catwalk through the windows. kind of. it was so cool though :)

on our train ride home, we met this really nice lady who is a lawyer in florence but is originally from london. she had some really good information for us for fall break! we are going to london for 3 nights and paris for 6 nights. she gave us her number so we can grab coffee in florence before we head to london.

we have met some really cool people so far. i met a girl that goes to western carolina, her name is amanda. we have been hanging out, going running, and playing soccer...she has been a lot of fun to get to know. our soccer tournament starts tomorrow night through school. im so excited!

better get going! i have a project due on tuesday that i havent started and ashley and i are going to church tonight! we found a non denominational church outside of florence, its in italian, but we are so excited to get to church :)